Lonely thoughts

Not sure if I will ever really shake this feeling that it’s all down hill from here. But when you have hit rock bottom it’s only one way you can go from there and that’s up. Still I feel like this might be it for us and my past me will take over.

A New World by Me

   Picture that life that you lived when you were younger now watch it’s go away right before your eyes…To have everything you once loved taken from you and everyone you loved you now seem to despise…Show little to no emotion never let them see you cry and when I say them I mean you…Because the moment you show yourself your own weakness your world soon crashes to….See all those childhood smiles and laughs fade into complete, empty, utter darkness…You’re now at the biggest point where you begin wondering how, why and what could have caused this… It’s your new world through me…That has you seeing such things as suffering, anguish, and misery.

Coexist by Me

 Questions rise in my head like the stars do at night looking for my emotions yet my feelings aren’t in sight…How do you understand the misunderstanding emotions that feels the mind unrest such as mines…They say love is blind but we can see just fine…That our hearts and souls are intertwined…we coexist before our time.

Real Classes by Brittany Boone(Me) :)

So they say no child left behind or that they are preparing us for the real word.

Well where is that real world class that explained to us the faults of a broken home now dealing with a single parent income.

Maybe they can point me in the direction to that class that puts our men in the streets and our women on their backs for cash.

Tell me how Jason handles his mother’s depression using that formula in math class.

Or how chemistry explained why Anna was raped and abused as a child.

As we shelter ourselves in those four walls there’s a real world going on outside.

Drugs, violence, and turning tricks.

None of us was prepared for this.

Find the classes that fixed any child’s cry.

Wiping each tear from their eyes and those of their mother’s which she fights to hide.

 Bring the teachers who speak of lived experiences, not just the ones of success but the dark truths of never making it.

Suicides and homicides, Prisons and grave sites, Pregnancies and STDs.

This is what most of our generation sees.

Stop pushing these bias views that we all live in a world of just knowledge and opportunity within these classes.

When reality is seen as clear as day with no race, age, gender, or religious discrimination.

So they say no child left behind or that they are preparing us for the real word.

Well where is that real world class that explains the truths I face today.

Not now

Things have always been a down point for me. I’m honestly use to the disappoints that life has always placed in front of me but not now. Now I’m having everything that has ever gone wrong in my life fall at once. Still like I do every day, I smile for the sun and cry for the moon. A persons sorrow is best noticed in the dark. Without an enter light of care you and everyone that surrounds that person will never know…